I have my days...

you ever just have one of those nights...

a night where nothing 'should' be wrong....

a night where you just sat and reviewed all the shit you went thru, knowing you shouldn't (nothing good can come from this...)

you just can't control it?

you know things are great,

wonderful, 

actually....more like

absolutely amazing

because

he is amazing, he is a blessing, he is more than you could ever ask for

but still...

you wonder, 'is this too good to be true?'

what if he gets 'bored'?

what if he changes his mind...

what if he finds better

what if he is just not happy

just...what if...?

a night like this is caused when you have too much 'me time' to think

a night like this a nightmare

because you know it's all just in your head

he tells you everyday how happy he is

he tells you how much he cares and loves you

and he won't leave you

FEAR

is the problem

FEAR

is the issue

FEAR

is something that you should NEVER let get the best of you

FEAR

is something you at times, have no control over

FEAR

is being shit scared that the one good thing you have in your life might walk out the door...

FEAR

is not knowing how to deal with it

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i have no reason to FEAR________but my downfall is 'I'm HUMAN!'

KEEP SMILING!!! (that's the best advice i can give)